I don’t know why I’m attempting to do this. To start a blog that no one will read. A journal dedicated to the chaos in my head. A testament to the glorious, but quite lovely little chaos in my head. Maybe to loosen up a little. To just let go, take out the trash and leave it somewhere far, like a journal. I’ve tried to keep a physical journal, then a journal on my local computer, but that’s way to easy to be picked up by someone. But here, here it’s just kephorus (how in the name of the old gods I came up with that I don’t know). It’s just kephrous and his mind, his toughts… his evolution.
Evolution is a big part in keph’s mind (notice that k is never capitalized, fuck capitalization!). It keeps his life interesting and the chaos flowing, along with the gore and morbidity that keep him tranquil. Why gore and morbidity, and why even mention these random words with no relation to my previous sentences, the man may ask. Well, as you may realize I am a human. A slightly evolved human that looks with a great amount of curiosity into his own mind and its evolution. A man with principles, unlike the fad mass of sheep out there. Principles he developed by thinking and observing hours by himself. And they might seem a little bit… weird, intrusive. These things make people in real life think about me as someone that either tries to impress or that is just a horrible person.
But the truth is, their ignorance is overwhelming. I’m just trying to be logical, and in no form or shape arrogant. The principles that lie at the base of my own mind are attempts at describing the human condition. I’m surrounded, as many people like me, by morons who are just hiding from their own nature, locking it far far away in a long forgotten corner of their minds, letting the mist of ignorance choke the crap out of it.
I suppose I’m not some superior breed of human, I’m just someone with a slightly more… liberating personality that trades the traits of being ignorant, of going with the flow to the more personal, but chaotic traits of being a perceiving introvert.
So I’ve mentioned evolution and my first post is getting quite long, butt fuck it, I gotta say it all, or the big chunk that’s sticking on right now. Evolution for me is a personal challenge, that I must overcome. No walls shall remain standing while I’m around. I’ve always dabbled about learning to see things, and to express them, that is art. “Oh come on this is getting boring” Shut the fuck up. I’m dreaming about being an artist of some sort one day, not as a full time thing that can sustain me, but as further evidence that I can destroy any wall that stand before me, and that I can achieve my dreams.
Dreams that sound stupid and far away, out of anyone’s reach. Dreams of greatness and of change for the entire human race. I want to be part of it, and I will be part of it. My whole mind is concentrated, if I may say ‘concentrated’ on the future and on the well being of others, even if most don’t deserve it. I’m still in high school… heck, I began high school four months ago, so maybe these are just passing thoughts, mixes of angst and sheer stupidity, but no matter what the causes of my monumental goals are, I will strive to achieve them, against the torrent of ignorance I’m being surrounded by.
This gonna be a long ride.